BABY TAYLOR

So everyone now know's that after mine and Josh's loss in May that we are now pregnant again!

I couldn't be more excited, the first ultrasound went great we saw and heard the babies heartbeat and he/she was developing awesome! It was such a great experience especially after the last time!


But with my second app tomorrow miscarriage has been on my mind lately! How come it is so hard to admit to myself that this baby will be okay, that everything looks great and I will actually have a good pregnancy!!! I don't know if its because this is my second app and at my Second app last time thats when I figured out I miscarried? I don't know, but maybe after tomorrow I will feel better and maybe not! Maybe some of you have had a miscarriage before and can give me some advice to not stress so much, I don't know all i know is that I am making myself crazy!!
Pregnancy should be a happy thing and I just need to convince myself of that:) 
SO here's to good news at my app tomorrow I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping my dad has a hand in it:)

Loss, Life, Love.

SOOO much has happened in mine and Josh's life lately... Some Pretty amazing things and some pretty hard things I haven't really been willing to share until now... First we will start with the good me and josh just got back from disneyland about a month ago and it was so much fun to just get away and relax:)... Then when we got back we had and interview with the Police Dept Josh applied for... So I guess I should say it was his interview, but the cheif wanted to talk to me to! Right in the middle of the interview Josh was offered the job!! It was so awesome:) and I seriously am sooo proud of him and all he has accomplished with his life! Then the next day I just felt weird I had felt weird the whole time we were on vacation to, I was just always tired and just needed some serious sleep... Sooo I decided to take a pregnancy test because I just had this feeling... and it came back positive, while I was so scared me and Josh were both so excited... but I just always had a weird feeling about the pregnancy from the beginning I can't explain it... Maybe a lot of it had to do with me being diabetic, while many diabetic women have just as successful pregnancies as those that are not I would say that it is a thought that is always in the back of your mind.. But I went to my first doctors app... As a Diabetic doctors prefer to see you a lot earlier than normal just to make sure everything is running smoothly so far in the pregnancy so I had my first ultrasound at 5 weeks and everything looked good!!! I was so relieved but like I said earlier there was always just that thought in the back of my mind... but we had so many good things going for us I just went on and only thought of the positive things:) Then I went to my 8 week app, Josh couldn't go with me that time because of this new job so my mom came, and the doctor did the Ultrasound and i only measured 6 weeks, it was a lot to take in and i honestly didnt know how to feel my only thought was I have to tell Josh over text message, he can't talk while at work obviously with what he does and he wouldn't get home until late that night and I would be asleep so I texted him and that was probably the biggest heartbreak of all not having Josh there with me. I opted out of the surgery form to remove the tissue and took pills to start the process "naturally" Josh had to work that day to so he also couldn't be there that day to I was in so much pain, but honestly i truly believe that everything happens for a reason and I really am okay with everything that has happened, plus its only fair my dad gets to keep his first grandchild:) And everyones support has been so amazing I don't know what I would do without the People in my life, No one Ever said Life would be easy they just said it would be worth it:) and I can only choose to be happy:) 

Too long since I have blogged!!

It has been way to long since I have last blogged alot has happened with Me Josh and Family:) We had alot of birthday's the fourth and Josh started the Police Academy:) I am so proud of him!!! First we had fathers day and my dads Birthday.. So on Fathers day we went up to his Grave It really was such a good experience:) I thought it would be hard but I found it to be more comforting:)



We also had Josh's and my Birthday:) For josh we went out to rodizio grill it was soooo yummy:) Then we went and played laser tag with some of our friends... it was actually way fun... im probably just the worst laser tag player you will ever meet though... No Big Deal..:) Then for My Birthday we were up in Bear Lake with my family It was alot of fun, we got Wave Runners and Had so much fun.. but got fried!!! But I always LOOVVEE getting away with my Hubby

Finally, We had the fourth it was alot of fun we got to see both sides of the family which is always good! Had a bbq at Josh's Grandparents then we also went to my mom's and did some fireworks and had ANOTHER bbq needless to say we were stuffed!!! It was the first year without papa bear here for the Holidays but we have such good friends surronding us it makes it alot better:)

I have not Blogged for so long i cant even remembered everything that has happened it has been a fast few months it has FLOWN by and I am enjoying EVERYDAY i need to get better at it GOING TO KATY PERRY on the 25th and i will for sure blog about that i cannot wait!!! good quality time with my best friend:)

New York, Easter APRIL:)!!!!!

HAPPY EASTER!!!!! LOVE THE TAYLOR'S:)!!!!!

This month has been wonderful!:) we had out reception which was alot of fun:) We went to New York! and it is also is EASTER!!! I absolutley love easter!! and am so excited to spend it with josh this year:)
New York was so much fun we had an AMAZING week together!!! it was so nice to just get away... We went to the wax museum and ripley's believe it or not! We also saw Spider man on broadway! We just had so much fun I love him Sooooo MUCH!

Going to The top of the Empire State Building:)

I must say that i have never been so happy.. :) We also just died easter eggs and it was fun! I kept trying to get an Egg that said Taylor and actually looked good haha it took about 4 eggs and it still didnt even look that great haha i dont think i am very cut out for the easter egg dying thing:)

Here are just a few more pictures of New York:)

He is such a dork:)

Rubbing it for good luck:)

at the statue of liberty:)

Just on an elevator ride:)

Got lazy with this blogging thing:)

So i got lazy at this blogging thing! But quite a bit has gone on:) I got a new job YAY!!! but i will miss urban trendz alot! Me and josh have both been kept busy with work and he has school! Feels like i haven't seen him for awhile! But thats going to change YAY cause we are going to NEW YORK next monday i can not wait! It will be soooo nice to get away:) But until then i am playing catch up on my house work so it is all ready to go:) Josh makes it so easy for me especailly when i come home from work to dinners like this...

I don't think That i could ask for anything better:) He is way to good to me:)
We also celebrated Kash's First Birthday I cannot believe he is one already!!! He was so cute!

I think he was teething but he is still adorable:)
And here is one of me and josh at the party he has the cheesiest smiles:) more to come from NEW YORK!!!!

WEEKEND

This weekend was so much fun:) Josh and I actually went out which is hard because he works and goes to school so much:) We went bowling which i love but for some reason can't play more than one game:)

I also the night before went bowling and to dinner with josh's side of the family and uncle Paul:) He is one of my favorites!:) it was so much fun i love my family and i must say i  have the cutest nephew ever:) Thats an old Picture he is so much bigger now almost one!!!! But i love them and i always love seeing paul!:)

Then on monday Josh Nathan (my brother) and i all went to Salt Lake just to get away and hang out we had so much fun even though it was RAINING!! we ate and went shopping and just had fun:) i always love hanging out with him:) 

And finally i found this picture of me and my papa and i have been missing him lots this week so i decided to post it love you daddy:)

First time Blogging

So this is my first time blogging above is my Joshy he means the world to me! He has helped me with everything:) Im the youngest of three kids with two older brothers:) My family is everything to me! My daddy passed away two months ago and he was my best friend :) I miss him every single day!! So up to date on my life well me and josh live in the cutest little apartment here in utah! I work as a receptionist at a hair salon about to go to school to be a Pharmacy Tech! Josh Is a manager at Fye and is currently going to school for Graphic design.. I enjoy every moment with him cause he is always so busy:) so im doing this blog to give me something to do!!! So I guess this is a good enough start and here is some photos to keep up to date:)